She doesn't know what to do with her life. She doesn't know. Dreams seem impossible, drying up like a raisin in the sun. Her life fades in and out, just like the gunshots she hears on the street corners everday. Living feels like hell. She wants to escape the rotting she feels inside her heart. Sometimes the pain gets to hurt so much until she can't cry anymore. Stillness rings in her ears. She remembers when she was little she had a dream. She wanted to be a doctor. She wanted to save lives. To cure. But how could she when she herself needed to be saved? From the world? From the prejudice? From herself?
Ruby was six when her mom and dad were killed. She was playing with the old doll she found on the streets. Her family never had any money to buy her fancy things, toys or pretty dresses. But she didn't mind. She's never known anything else. The house she lived in was barely bigger than what would be your room. The kitchen and living room was all in one room. Her mother and father slept on the floor, while Ruby slept on the old, hard, dirty couch. But sometimes, she couldn't stand it, and she would sleep on the ground and have her parents sleep on the couch instead. She could hardly call it a home.
She loved the library though. She would rather live in the library, surrounded completely by piles and piles of books, inhaling the smell of the old wrinkly pages, and savouring the sound as pages turned. It was a small library, and not all of the books are in top condition, but it was the only place where she felt safe. Where she felt she could escape. She's read tons and tons of books. Her favourites were adventures. She liked to escape, as far as she could inside her mind. Books allowed her to do that. Sometimes, she would lose herself in a book and lose track of time. That's how she spent her life. She read and read and read and learned and learned, even when she moved to live with her aunt and uncle.
When she turned 14, Ruby decided she wanted to make a change in this world. She wanted to save lives. So she worked as hard as she could in high school, and got accepted into
Harvard law school. She now is married, has two kids a boy Henry and a girl Alice, and now they live happily in Seattle, where Ruby continues to fight for change.
Of course, this whole story is made up. It was just a story I made up because I was in need of writing inspiration, but who's to say someone hasn't gone through this? I hope you enjoyed this short piece of prose. I was way overdue in terms of writing. I haven't had any time to write lately, so uh, yeah. Tell me what you think.
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
a girl named ruby.
Categories:
prose
Sunday, March 27, 2011
I can't think of a title.
Mood:content
So remember in the earlier post, I told you how I was going to a movie night with some of the tennis girls for 'team bonding'? And how I said they didn't really seem like the type of people who I would usually hang out with? I was wrong. We didn't even watch a movie. During the 6 and a half hours that we were there at Taylor J's house, we talked. We talked about everything. Boys, ghosts, death, life, everything, and we all shared stories. After the night, I realised how cool and funny these girls were. Not all of the tennis girls came, but for those who did, I felt so much closer to them than I did before.
We ordered pizza from Benitos and one of the captains went out to buy icecream. The thing I remember the most about the night was that we had a long talk about death, and then ghosts and creepy dreams and when the parents of the girl's house whose house we were at came home (Taylor J), Sarah looked towards the door and said there was someone there and at first no one believed her and then Taylor J said, "Actually... there is." and then the next thing I knew, everyone was screaming. And then when her mom came into the kitchen we all screamed again. It was hilarious.
Well, I have to go back to writing out my lab for science class. I think I'm definitely going to die next year when I take almost all advanced classes. I'm not sure if it even will be worth it. But we shall see. That's all for now. Buh-bye.
Anything interesting been happening to you guys?
So remember in the earlier post, I told you how I was going to a movie night with some of the tennis girls for 'team bonding'? And how I said they didn't really seem like the type of people who I would usually hang out with? I was wrong. We didn't even watch a movie. During the 6 and a half hours that we were there at Taylor J's house, we talked. We talked about everything. Boys, ghosts, death, life, everything, and we all shared stories. After the night, I realised how cool and funny these girls were. Not all of the tennis girls came, but for those who did, I felt so much closer to them than I did before.
We ordered pizza from Benitos and one of the captains went out to buy icecream. The thing I remember the most about the night was that we had a long talk about death, and then ghosts and creepy dreams and when the parents of the girl's house whose house we were at came home (Taylor J), Sarah looked towards the door and said there was someone there and at first no one believed her and then Taylor J said, "Actually... there is." and then the next thing I knew, everyone was screaming. And then when her mom came into the kitchen we all screamed again. It was hilarious.
Well, I have to go back to writing out my lab for science class. I think I'm definitely going to die next year when I take almost all advanced classes. I'm not sure if it even will be worth it. But we shall see. That's all for now. Buh-bye.
Anything interesting been happening to you guys?
Categories:
thoughts
Saturday, March 26, 2011
If you're looking for an interesting post to read, you've come to the wrong place.
Mood:content
So I'm beginning to realise how sucky I've been at blogging. I have basically, no post ideas and have been pretty much neglecting this blog. I'm so sorry, you guys. D: I feel so bad. Mostly, I've just been super busy and once I get home and onto the computer, I feel too lazy and tired to blog. I find myself on Tumblr all the time, and though I'm on Tumblr more than I'm on Blogger nowadays, I could never call that place a real blog. My life has been consisting tennis and academics lately. I just can't wait until summer break... freedom, band camp, photography, perhaps a summer job. My whole week was a blur, but all I can remember is that I've gone to sleep at 12am every day that week. Tennis + procrastination has left me little time to complete all the homework I have. I don't even want to think about next year when I'm taking pretty much all advanced classes. What makes school even more annoying is that my Info Tech teacher, who is old, annoying, stubborn and grumpy refuses to update grades so I have an A- in his class, so I have a 3.95 instead of a 4.0 again. BLAH. Can you tell how pathetic my life is?
But on the other hand, I've made some new friends in tennis, 'cause all of the girls are nice. We're having a movie night later at 4:30pm. Thing is though, not all of them would be considered the type of people who I would usually hang with. Our chatter usually consists of boys, music that I do not listen to and some shows that I do not watch. Still, I guess you could say that I'm being quite prejudice here and I don't really know much about a lot of them yet.
If you're here looking for an interesting post, I believe you've come to the wrong place. I haven't had any time to write lately, and I feel my writing and skills of poetry and prose slowly slipping away. I lack inspiration. High school does that to you. Or at least winter does... I know it should be spring already, but where I live, winter lasts almost half the year, leaving little time for warmth. I promise though, once spring is officially here, and it gets warm and pretty outside once more, inspiration will be kicking in and posts shall be interesting again.
For now, you will have to deal.
I'm becoming so boring.
Or at least my posts are.
I can't tell anymore.
So I'm beginning to realise how sucky I've been at blogging. I have basically, no post ideas and have been pretty much neglecting this blog. I'm so sorry, you guys. D: I feel so bad. Mostly, I've just been super busy and once I get home and onto the computer, I feel too lazy and tired to blog. I find myself on Tumblr all the time, and though I'm on Tumblr more than I'm on Blogger nowadays, I could never call that place a real blog. My life has been consisting tennis and academics lately. I just can't wait until summer break... freedom, band camp, photography, perhaps a summer job. My whole week was a blur, but all I can remember is that I've gone to sleep at 12am every day that week. Tennis + procrastination has left me little time to complete all the homework I have. I don't even want to think about next year when I'm taking pretty much all advanced classes. What makes school even more annoying is that my Info Tech teacher, who is old, annoying, stubborn and grumpy refuses to update grades so I have an A- in his class, so I have a 3.95 instead of a 4.0 again. BLAH. Can you tell how pathetic my life is?
But on the other hand, I've made some new friends in tennis, 'cause all of the girls are nice. We're having a movie night later at 4:30pm. Thing is though, not all of them would be considered the type of people who I would usually hang with. Our chatter usually consists of boys, music that I do not listen to and some shows that I do not watch. Still, I guess you could say that I'm being quite prejudice here and I don't really know much about a lot of them yet.
If you're here looking for an interesting post, I believe you've come to the wrong place. I haven't had any time to write lately, and I feel my writing and skills of poetry and prose slowly slipping away. I lack inspiration. High school does that to you. Or at least winter does... I know it should be spring already, but where I live, winter lasts almost half the year, leaving little time for warmth. I promise though, once spring is officially here, and it gets warm and pretty outside once more, inspiration will be kicking in and posts shall be interesting again.
For now, you will have to deal.
I'm becoming so boring.
Or at least my posts are.
I can't tell anymore.
Categories:
thoughts
Friday, March 18, 2011
a serendipity of photos.
Mood:happy
Peter is the wolf.
Heartfist.
Death Blossoms
These are all photos that I took recently. The first one, I had that idea for awhile. The paper wolf mask was something Sophia got at the public library during story time. I wanted to do something with it - preferably outside by the woods - but 'twas too cold, so I just took it in my room. I'll probably be using it for other shoots too. The last two, I took just last night when I went to my friend Rachel's house for a movie night. I love her house and her room... she has a whole wall that is just chalkboard and I drew the Rise Against heartfist logo on it. Spring always gives me a sense of inspiration... probably because it's warm, and there's so many thing to take pictures of outside. See more of my photos here!
Something happened this week. I made the tennis team! Dude, was I ever so surprised. I didn't expect to make the team at all because it was the first time I've ever played tennis and at first I wasn't even sure if I wanted to have that commitment of having to go to practice everyday, etc. because I'm terrified of commitment. But the first practice was today and I have to say - I had a lot of fun! 1. I'm actually not bad at it. 2. The girls are so nice! I mean, volleyball was cool when I did it in like the 7th and 8th grade, but the girls weren't exactly my type of people... The tennis girls are super cool, and a few of them are even in band like me. :) I'm beginning to think that I might actually stick to this sport and let it be my 4 year sport.
Next Tuesday are symphonic band tryouts. I hope I make it, though a lot of people already said I have a really good chance of making it because I'm really good (not to sound egotistic or anything ;D) I'm in varsity band right now and the difference between Concert, Varsity, and Symphonic is that Concert/Varsity music is easy and not challenging at all, and the people aren't serious about band. Symphonic is aabsolutely amazing. Mostly upperclassmen and a few underclass, but all of them are serious about people, mature and the music is challenging, but so beautiful and worth it. My section leader even told me to try out for both symphonic and section leader, and I just feel so accomplished to be able to have people who are already in symphonic/are section leaders to say that to me. :) I hope I make it! Wish me luck when I try out next week!
And I'm done rambling, seeing as I don't really have much else to say and you guys probably get pretty tired of hearing about my boring, pathetic life.
Tell me an interesting story about you or anything interesting that has happened to you.
Categories:
photography
Monday, March 14, 2011
Happy Pi Day, My Sweet Dorkatrons.
Today is Pi Day . Pi as in 3.1415926535 8979323846 2643383279 5028841971 6939937510 5820974944 5923078164 0628620899 8628034825 3421170679 8214808651 3282306647 0938446095 5058223172 5359408128 4811174502 8410270193 8521105559 6446229489 5493038196 4428810975 6659334461 2847564823 3786783165 2712019091 4564856692 3460348610 4543266482 1339360726 0249141273 7245870066 0631558817 4881520920 9628292540 9171536436 7892590360 0113305305 4882046652 1384146951 9415116094 3305727036 5759591953 0921861173 8193261179 3105118548 0744623799 6274956735 1885752724 8912279381 8301194912 9833673362 4406566430 8602139494 6395224737 1907021798 6094370277 0539217176 2931767523 8467481846 7669405132 0005681271 4526356082 7785771342 7577896091 7363717872 1468440901 2249534301 4654958537 1050792279 6892589235 4201995611 2129021960 8640344181 5981362977 4771309960 5187072113 4999999837 2978049951 0597317328 1609631859 5024459455 3469083026 4252230825 3344685035 2619311881 7101000313 7838752886 5875332083 8142061717 7669147303 5982534904 2875546873 1159562863 8823537875 9375195778 1857780532 1712268066 1300192787 6611195909 2164201989.
Today felt like a fairly short day, probably because it was overall a really great day, other than tennis. I think it was because we pretty much did nothing in all of classes. We took pictures in band, so I had to bring my marching uniform. And the best part of the the whole day was that in Mrs. Murphy's Geometry class, everyone brought pies (pies, of all kind, everywhere!) IT WAS AMAZING AND AWESOME. I LOVE PIE.
That was pretty much the only good part of the day, since we've all been looking forward to it for forever. I mean, c'mon. It's PIE. After that, was day one of tennis tryouts. I didn't try out today - mine is tomorrow - so I just practiced. I pretty much fail. The fact that I did not know that it was supposed to take place outside today did not help. I WAS FREEZING. Freezing. And I pretty much didn't say anything the whole time because 1. It was freaking cold, and 2. I've mentioned before that I'm shy and awkward when I'm not around people who I'm used to.
At least it'll be a short week. Half day Thursday for Parent/Teacher Confereces, and Staff Development Day Friday. Speaking of school, I think I might die next year, because I've signed up for:
Accelerated American Literature
Honours Biology
Chemistry
Algebra II
French I
Symphonic Band
Yeah, I'm doubling up on Chem. and Bio. so I can take an AP science class Junior / Senior year. My parents aren't pressuring me to take these classes. I just want to get the most out of my HS career, even if it means I might die in the process because of all the homework and work. Still, I think I'll be able to handle it with the right attitude. I need to get rid of the procrastination, like I'm doing right now...
So, I guess I'd better get to it.
Categories:
thoughts
Thursday, March 10, 2011
Six Ways Till Sunday
The voices that we heard so loud
Are now suddenly silenced
Inside this crowd
And you're surrounded by the lives
Of those who found something to hold
So bringing everybody down
Is all you know
You've been hiding so long
You can't find yourself
In this sheltered life you live
When everything you want is at your fingertips
You'll never know what need is
You're claiming to be something different
So wanting to believe
That you're better than the rest
To make up for your self-esteem
You talk to hear your own voice and
You've left me no choice but to choose
I miss the person that you were
But I don't miss you
You've been hiding so long
You can't find yourself
In this sheltered life you live
When everything you want is at your fingertips
You'll never know what need is
You're the new revolution
The angst-filled adolescent
You fit the stereotype well
1, 2, 3, Go!
You're the new revolution
The angst-filled adolescent
You fit the stereotype well
- Six Ways Till Sunday by Rise Against ♥
Categories:
music
Sunday, March 6, 2011
We can't spend out lives waiting to live...
Mood:bored
Why did the weekend go by so fast, while the week was excruciatingly slow? Tomorrow is Monday. This week will be incredibly busy. I might die from all this busyness. Why, you ask? Let's see...
Monday:
So today, I did this to my ceiling:
Nothing interesting as of late. Just dreading the start of the week.
Oh, btw, I took new photos! :) Go here to see!
Sincerely,
P.S. Has anything interesting happened to you guys? :)
Why did the weekend go by so fast, while the week was excruciatingly slow? Tomorrow is Monday. This week will be incredibly busy. I might die from all this busyness. Why, you ask? Let's see...
Monday:
- Doctor's appointment 3:45pm
- 3 - 5pm tennis conditioning
Tuesday:
- Pre-festival band concert 6:45pm
- 3 - 5pm tennis conditioning
Wednesday:
- Optometrist appointment 3:15pm
- 3 - 5pm tennis conditioning
- Varsity Band Rehearsal 6-ish
Thursday:
- 3 - 5pm tennis conditioning
Friday:
- Band Festival 1:40-7:40
I'm going to hate this week.
So today, I did this to my ceiling:
I stayed up till 2:30AM cutting and pasting this onto the ceiling above my bed. It's a line from The Dirt Whispered by Rise Against. I'm so proud of myself. Doesn't it look awesome? I feel so accomplished. Their new album Endgame comes out in 8 days! I'm so excited! Me and Tori really want to go to their concert in May where they'll be performing with Bad Religion. If you haven't figured it out yet, they're my favourite band ever. I have all of their songs and albums on Mr. Sushi. Oh, and I forgot to mention to you guys - Mr. Sushi is almost full! :( 1252 songs. And I still need room for Endgame. I really want an iPod classic 160 gig, but that's like $249 and I have zip. And I know my parents won't get me another one, so somehow I need to come up with the money on my own.
Nothing interesting as of late. Just dreading the start of the week.
Oh, btw, I took new photos! :) Go here to see!
Sincerely,
P.S. Has anything interesting happened to you guys? :)
Categories:
thoughts
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Happy Birthday Dr. Seuss - Star Wars Style!
Mood:content
Today Dr. Seuss would be 107. Cartoonist Adam Watson recently drew these Seuss-inspired Star Wars characters…
Obi-wan Kenobi and Darth Vader:
Jabba the Hut:
Yoda:
Han and Chewie:
For more, see the source:
http://themightyadam.blogspot.com/2010/11/dr-seuss-does-star-wars.html
Categories:
inspirational
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