Tuesday, January 4, 2011

The Abnormality of Normalcy


[Just a random picture of a chocolate frog, because chocolate frogs are wicked.]

I have blogged about this before in some previous posts, but I'm going to talk about it again, just to vent and I need you guys to help me with this, okay? Okay. Here's the thing: I have come to the conclusion that I am - slightly, slightly introverted. Or rather, shy.  

Why, I don't know. Thing is, around my friends or people who I'm used to, I am not shy at all. Rather, I am quite the talkative person. But people who ask me, "Why are you so quiet?" or say to me, "You never talk," are usually the people who I won't ever be talkative around or talk to because those are the people who make me uncomfortable. 

I don't talk to you either because 1) I DO NOT LIKE YOU, 2) I don't know you that well; therefore, I'm not comfortable around you yet, or 3) The most likely reason, I don't know what to say to you when you are talking, seeing as how I'm a horrible conversationalist. I really am. Sometimes someone would say something to me, to try to talk to me and I would just find myself just nodding slowly, comprehending what they said with a look on my face that reads, "Mhmm....yeahh, good for you," because I don't know what else to talk about with them. I don't know what to talk about to a person who I don't hang around, who I don't know if I have anything in common with.

Some of my friends admitted that when they first met me, I would just not talk, but they didn't prod me like some people and question why. They talked more and more to me and got to know me. And some of them are the best, closest, and amazing people who I've ever met. And I love them for breaking down my wall.

Funny thing is, all of my friends are LOUD and crazy (I'll admit the crazy part - I love being crazy.) They broke me out of my shell, and still are. I just guess two shy people are hard to become friends with if they're both shy. Haha.

With my friends, I can never run out of things to talk about. We talk about nothing and everything; the most randomest things that pop into our minds. With others, I don't know, I just can't do that.

I guess I just suck at making conversation.

Help me, you guys? Please? :)

1 comment:

J.Cee said...

Here's a (not-so-secret) secret --- I'm kind of like you in a way. I don't talk to people I don't like and I don't have anything in common with. And I'm a horrible conversationalist too, but I try to make conversation anyway. I figure if someone wants to talk to me, then they should meet me halfway when I'm trying my best.

It's not a bad thing. It's who you are.

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