Thursday, December 16, 2010

the faults of first love.

and I’m happy for him - good for you. And I can try to act like it doesn’t hurt. But it does, just a little bit. Just a little bit…
and I don’t have any more feelings for you, because I know in the future, there will be someone who will make me as happy as Frank Sinatra does (okay, well… maybe not as happy as Frank, but close enough to that. ;D) And there are already guys who want to chase me… except I’m done caring about boys; they’re stupid and unintelligent. I’m happy I finally get to go back to focusing on being an overachiever. ;)
But it hurts a little hearing and seeing you say the things to her that you’ve once said to me; it makes me wonder if those things you said were true. I don’t know her, but she seems like a nice girl. And I’m happy, really really happy for you two…
First love. That’s what it’s called. But I wasn’t one of those naive girls who thought it would last forever. I knew it would end. I knew for every happy, love song that reminded me of you, there would be two more sad, broken songs that would remind me of you. That’s life. And that’s why it’s called first love.
But I won’t look back, ever. No regrets. 
Because boy, I’m not broken yet. ♥


Anonymous said...

Dear Candy,
I'm so, so sorry. I feel for you, I really do. I've been there actually twice in the past, and I have to say, you WILL get over it. I know that you may think that you're over it, but inside each girl there's always going to be a part that dies whenever you see him with another girl. But that feeling will pass with time.
I have to say, you are taking this with much greater grace and maturity than I did. You're already focusing on the other more important details of your life, and not getting caught up in the hurt-jealousy-hate-revenge cycle many of us do. I must admit that only recently have I been able to do that myself, and I had the harsh awakening four months ago.
I'm praying for you, girl. And I'm praying for that guy that will make you almost as happy as Frank Sinatra -praying that neither of you will have too many more faulty relationships before you meet, so that u can be perfectly happy, without baggage, when you meet each other. I know he's out there somewhere.
Keep on rocking, Candy. He's not worth you and your amazingness if he'll let you go and find someone else not nearly as cool (but it's the mature thing to do to be happy for him. Can't say I'm quite there yet.)
-This Crazy Chick
(I did NOT mean for this comment to be so long!!!)

Leona said...

Ohmy. :(

It's great that you're already looking forward and not dwelling on the past. After all, you deserve more than someone who can't take you seriously [enough]. ;D

Sadly, no, I haven't read it yet, but it's one of those books that a lot of people recommend, and I'm really looking forward to reading it in the future.

Ebony said...

You may not want to hear this, but if he is your first love, you won't get over him that easily. I met my first love more than three years ago, and through every new boy I meet, there is still an undercurrent of him. Love is hard, and it hurts, but it is beautiful, and worth it. Good luck with everything, I'm so sorry you've been hurt.

♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ ayu ♫ Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ ♫ said...

im sorry to hear about what happened..but i like your attitude towards this situation! keep going girl!

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